I don’t go out….i don’t do anything….29 year old who races to the house after work like i have a dam curfew….i think my weight contributes to me being so anti-social….and i hate it….i can never find a person who DOESN’T want anything from me….i do all the fuckin giving….and get absolutely nothing in return…
Fact: (about me)….i don’t want u to have a job to take care of me….i GOTZ me….i want u to have a job so i won’t have to take care of ya ass….
Not everyone wants to mooch….but plenty of mufuckaz do….man i swurr they don’t make em strong and willing like they used to….u rarely hear of young housewives now-a-days….bcuz these fools not willing to take care of home….take care of their families….but then wanna be the first ones to scream out how the man is head of the household…im not understanding….
I’m sked to meet anyone new….sked i’ll fall into the same bullshit im used to….and i don’t plan on spending another 5-10 years of my life with someone only to find out that their completely wrong for me….im way too unstable for that bullshit….
I find myself so angry all the time…snappin on people….and i mean snappin….and i know that aint me…i be on one ALL the time….and i cant figure out where the heyal its comin from….im starting to think i need anger management….and im like…this is some straight up bullshit….
Need sum words of encouragement….
Sumbody….
Anybody….
SNOOP LOVE THE KIDS
hahahahaha choc’s face
My dumb ass….smh….

In 2006….i was natural…i cut all of my hair off….smh…where i would’ve been had i stayed natural….i could kick myself in the ass….but hey…i got a chance to start over again….thank the Lord for that much….
Before the year of Youtube…i was completely clueless as far as styling my hair…so i either wore it like this….put a headband on it….kept it braided at the top….but never used gel…didnt care about twistouts….braidouts….conditioning…detangling….after exactly a year…i relaxed my hair….
Alot has changed since then….i was a lil boy….lmao….

Crazy huh????

Gets worse….

OOOOkay…enough of that….u get the point….
My ways havent changed…i still love bitches….rotfl….im just versatile….hmph…
Its crazy….lets fast forward….2010….
I smile a lil more….

Juuuust a lil…..2011….

Not….

Okay maybe a smurk….

Im bored yawl….but i do wanna see all of my pics in one place….its fun running thru phases of ur life….just takes me back….tsk…
Aite….
Stroll down memory lane….*sighs*….

Oooohhhh…experimenting with makeup…didnt know what i was doing….dont judge me….i mean dont u DO IT…..rotfl!!!!!

The invisible part that contributed to my thin hair at the top….
Yes i had a gold toofus…keyword HAD!!!!

*winx*….i have many faces….didnt realize ive taken so many pics tho…lmao….
Just a lil stroll down memory lane…n i aint done….
-Jah
Good -vs- Evil….

Nappy Roots -vs- Straight Ends….
Nappy Roots won

I surrendered…lol…u should try it…
Gay rights activists: known universally for their awesome signs
Likely the best post I’ve ever seen on tumblr.
I like the second one. :P
(Source: thesedamndays)
Via To all that wander.
Thanksgiving Day Massacre….*dun dun duuun*…
I won’t reveal specific people or situations…i can give a somewhat broad scenario…
Say u spend….an ample amount of time….not with WITH someone….but with someone…not TOGETHER together….but…together….yawl not a couple…but u ummm….enjoy each others company….do things that couples may do…but for the most part its mostly about sex….no strings attached…no trust issues….but u all get along like a couple…nothing to argue about….everything is….somewhat…perfect…*ding*….*record scratches*…..
Im a do-gooder….i will go above and beyond to make that special someone…happy…whatever it takes….imagine my shock….when i find out….he’s just not that into me….HA….well…i wouldnt say all that…but…when it comes to wanting a relationship….i just wasnt his type….
Hmmmm….thats funny…behind these walls im everything u need…and want…but outside of that…i guess i just didnt make the cut…now…i have never been the one to wear make up….(as an adult)….get my nails and hair done…heels…no….dressy classy miss…no…and i guess thats what he wanted….when i told him i could become all of that….he says “no…bcuz thats not in u”…..when im already knowing his stuckup ass friends would not accept me…nor the fact that we called ourselves a couple….
Im a house shoe….jogging pants…t-shirt wearing type of person….but im fully aware of my capabilities….and how i could look if i choose to put forward the effort to do so….but im happy not to have a shallow hal….when i do bust out this shell….foe thurty(country)….
I would love for someone to love me for me….and THEN give me reasons to wanna jump clean…yanno….get a sexy for em….well not sexy….more like done up….
It hurts to know that all the time and effort i put into being someones all…was completely in vein bcuz i didnt have a perfect exterior….OMG that burns me UP!!!!!
When is the world gone wake the fuck up and realize….u could be letting ur diamond in the rough slide right the fuck by u while u staring at an empty ass coca cola bottle….but i cant wait for my time to shine….and all i’ll SCREAM is…..U SHOULDA LOVED ME WHEN U HAD THE CHANCE!!!!!!!!!” Thats a painful scream….tsk….
Any who….newport time…..

-Jah
PRODUCT JUNKIIIIEEEEEE!!!!!!!

Suave shampoos and conditioners
Coconut Milk Shampoo and Conditioner by Organix
Motions CPR leave in conditioner
Herbal Essences Hello Hydration
Olive Oil Moisturizing Hair Lotion
Profectiv Hair Strengthener
Olive Oil
Cantu Shea Butter leave in conditioner
Coconut Oil Hair & Scalp conditioner
Coconut Milk(oil) By Organix


All of these products work well on MY hair….im not able to assure anyone else that they will work the same for them…
I did forget to add the Olive Oil Eco Styler gel in the pics but i use it faithfully…i doesnt get very hard if u wet ur dry hair before applying it….and alone…it doesnt leave flakes….well atleast not for a couple of days….
I will say….about Eco Styler Olive Oil gel….on my hair….if i apply Cantu Shea Butter leave in conditioner or the Profectiv Daily Leave In Hair Strengthener…they leave white residue on the ends of my hair….so not cute….
Motions hair CPR is a great leave in conditioner….i just started using it and so far…i love it….has a nice citrus aroma and when it dries…it leaves my hair really soft…
Conditioners….in MY opinion are just conditioners….i do NOT by expensive conditioners only because co-washing 2-3 times a week u tend to run thru ur conditioners…the most expensive conditioner is have in the pics above is the Organix Coconut Milk conditioner…and notice it is the smallest conditioner bottle i have…i believe it was about $5.48….and the largest one i have is Suave in the gray bottle…works just as well…for about $2 less….so…u get the picture….
My coconut oil i use faithfully…moisturizes my scalp and will keep doing so for a couple of days without applying more…i just love it….lmao…NEEEEXT!!!!
My daily hair routine is simple….wake up to a matted mess on top of my head….if i dont wash my hair….i spray my hair down with water olive oil and coconut milk all mixed in a water bottle….i pick out my hair while its fairly wet….starting from tip to root….i brush all the hair (top)back and (back)up…take my little scrunchie….let it hang on my neck….apply my gel(a good amount on the top and about a dime size in the back)….alllllll over my edges…brush some more….put my scrunchie on my for head and i begin to roll it upward….being careful not to get any hair tangled….hurts like hell)….until my puff is at the desired height i want it….i then get a scarf…wrap it around the gel’d part of my hair….pick out my puff some more….10-(however many minutes later)….i remove my scarf and i then have my masterpiece….
Takes less time to do it than it did to type how i did it…lol…quick and easy style…
If i DO wash my hair….i simply pick it out…apply product…towel dry it a bit….apply gel on the top only….then wrap a scarf around my edges….take it off a few minutes later….put on a headband….and wear my hair as a full fro….at the same time its air drying….but still cute…
I guess thats y i like being natural….i never liked to do anything to my head….and being natural gives me a perfectly good reason to keep it that way…hahaaaa!!!! *laugh*….
Anywho….hope i didnt bore u….if i did…*kanye shrug*….
Be easy…
-Jah
unicornsandglitterho asked: I recently did the "big chop" after transitioning for about a year. Do you have any products you suggest I try? I love the Kinky Curly products, but I want to experiment with others. Thanks =)
Guuul…lol…im a product junkie….i have alot of stuff…but the products that work best on my hair are…Olive Oil Gel by Eco…doesnt get too hard(depending on how much u use) and from what i read…is very good for ur hair….as far as a gel goes…lol…I also use Coconut Milk by Organix (i think thats the name) which really makes dry and brittle hair soft and manageable…its called coconut milk but is in the form of an oil….and there is also shampoo and conditioner in that same line…the conditioner is thick and to me….does its job…smells really nice too….ofcourse i have olive oil….i use herbal essence (forgot the name) conditioner to co-wash…which i do probably twice a week….ummm…then there is shea butter…lots of different kinds but the one i use is in the form of a leave in conditioner….i think its by cantu…now…with that….u have to be careful….especially if u dont wash ur hair everyday….while using it with the olive oil gel…it will leave white residue in ur hair so i stopped using it….mainly all i put in my hair on a daily basis is coconut milk….olive oil gel…and water….i use a leave in conditioner by motions (i promise ill get u names…im not around my products at the time)….and i use an anti-breakage serum…it has the consistency of pudding but works well on softening hair but behaves the same with the gel….
I dont use all of these products at once ofcourse….i rotate everytime i wash my hair….WHEEEW…LOL…i know that was alot more than u were hoping for…but i didnt want to leave anything out…hope this was helpful…enjoy being naptural…. <3….
Fuck love…im tiyud of tryin….
I dont hate love….its just not for me….
The immature me was just thinking….maybe i couldnt find love bcuz i was a fat girl….hmph….far from the truth….(irrelevant but SO had to be said)….
Ive discovered a wonderful gift….i actually know how to turn my feelings on and off….like a fuckin light switch….atleast thats what i show people….bcuz it really doesnt matter what u feel…its what u show….

Gettin kinda scary now….only bcuz…what began as a defense mechanism to ward off potential threats dealing with matters of the heart….has quickly turned into a lifestyle for me….
I could have easily passed up a couple of Mr/Ms Rights….but bcuz i have too much pride to let myself be hurt again…i put em thru hell….just to see who can actually endure the “real me”….and so far….none have passed the test….which is a good thing for me….
A woman scorned….i wear the label proudly….my future may be paying for my past but hey….i refuse to go thru the hell i went thru…just to say i have someone…thats ummm…whats the word….*snaps finger*….its right on the tip of my tongue…oh yeah….STUPID…
I dont deal with feelings…bcuz if i did…id be an emotional wreck…and ummm…im way too unstable for that…so as a favor to me and those around me….i….dont…fuckin…deal…no point in it….
“Jah u have no heart….Jah ur so cold….Jah ur gonna find love one day….but at the rate ur going….ull push them away before u realize its love…Jah i think what ur doing is selfish and cruel….Jah…jah….JAH!!!!” My response…”huh…u say sumthin???”
No need in revealing the gruesome details of my past…my mind has blocked it out anyway….i’ll just say…im where i wanna be and hes where he should be…#nuffsaid….

I dont have many friends….dont want many friends…i choose em carefully…and by “em” i mean….1….i just believe were in the midst of some very illiterate females…”openly messy” females….females whose intentions every waking day…is to fuck up someone elses life….
Gossip….rumors…smiling away at someone whose name ur doggin out….i despise em….anti-social….never will i join a conversation…but ur more than welcome to join mine….
The look on my face will never show whether or not i like u….im way too grown for that…my disgust for u and ur kind will never seep from my facial expressions or my body language….i have a lot of hate for certain types of people…but i cant change em….i do have to co-exist with em tho….so i keep my feelings and actions concealed…smart girl Jah….#realspill….

Virgos are notorious for keeping their feelings contained….i dont wanna change the world…just wanna keep fuckery out of view….
“Thats the end of my speech, Imma need you to clap” -Wale
Newport time….
-Jah
What’s the difference between a natural and a healthy natural?????
*blank stare*…..silly me…watchin a youtube video….noticed how some females were saying “i’ve been a natural for (such n such) years….but i’ve been a HEALTHY natural for (such n such) years…..da heyal….im confused….
Im also confused about when to be able to call urself a natural….im hearing that natural doesnt start when u cut all of ur relaxed ends off….bcuz chemicals from relaxers can remain in ur scalp….so….
I guess my question is….WHAT DA HEYAL IS A HEALTHY NATURAL….and….*clears thoke*….(yeah i said thoke)…..If my last relaxer was in January….and i did the big chop in May….when can i officially consider myself a natural….or better yet…a HEALTHY natural????
No i dont wanna google it….id rather hear it from real people….not computer generated opinions or scientists in a dam lab who know nothing about natural AFRICAN AMERICAN hair (but can cook up a MEAN anti-breakage serum)…HA….
Anywho….im watchin How High waitin for an answer…..(hums jeopardy theme song)….
-Jah
Until the day I die <3 Gotta embrace and love all of me. No point in trying to change who I naturally am.
VIRGO - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word.. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. A pushover. Loves to gamble and take chances. Needs to have the last say in everything…..
(Source: turnedtothesun)


